Housekeeping

After getting many spammy comments for about two months now, I've changed the comment settings for this blog. You can still comment anonymously (I feel that is important for a topic like this) but now comments are moderated (and you will have to prove you are human), so that should cut down on the spam. I've also deleted all the comment spam.

And guess what I found? Real comments! From real people, I mean. They all started coming in (both the real comments as well as the spammy comments) January of this year, so I don't know what happened to route traffic to this blog after it's been inactive for, what, two years now? But, welcome. I'm glad you're enjoying the posts archived here. I started this blog as a writing project, one that is now on the back burner while I work on another (non-sexual) one. I would like to return to this one at some point.

Meanwhile, to keep this post on topic, I'll give you a brief sexual update: After an intense but ultimately unfulfilling relationship, I've been slowly recovering my old sexual self. I haven't had partner sex for almost a year now. I miss it. I do think I (almost) made up for my ten years without partner sex in those months, and that was nice. Since the breakup I haven't been very interested in masturbation. For the most part, it has acted as a release when the tension builds up, but it doesn't have the same lustre (or fulfillment) as it held for me before. In the last month or so, I have been playing more, feeling my libido wake up more. I sense that, come spring, I will be in a spring-like mood. :) But relationships and partner sex continue to scare me -- I love sex but I have experienced much sexual assault, too. Seeking sex outside of the confines of a committed, monogamous relationship is a threatening thing to me. I do hope that I am able to find some middle ground, though, as I miss partner sex very much and at the moment have no appetite for another relationship. In the meantime, I'll start my own explorations once again.